rambling
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I watched the movie Bound directed by the Wachowski sisters. No context about the movie ahead, I just need to get this off of my chest. “Fuckin’ queers, you make me sick,” (1:22:46) says Caeser, Violet’s husband, to Corky. And what is this sickness? Just the scene before, Corky and Violet wordlessly confessed their love…
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Today I found myself parked on the side of the street, phoning a suicide hotline. Curled up in a reclined chair, sinking into the middle of it, I listen to the line ring. A woman picks up the phone, her name is Janice or Gina. Later on in the call, she asks me if I…
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Yesterday, I spent the whole day in bed with a sense of panic. I rescheduled my therapy appointment to happen two weeks from now, but I’m thinking maybe I should have gone. Every month, usually around a week and a half before my period, I plummet into a nonsensical depression. Premenstrual dysphoric disorder is what…
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It’s been a while, I’ve been busy! I’m in school now, which is awesome. I’m in a period of being incredibly critical of my own writing. It started with trying to write essays for scholarships. I kept writing about other things that didn’t relate to the topic questions. I did a lot of mental processing…
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I’m in fourth grade. We’re walking back to the classroom from lunch. I’m at the front of the line, following Mr. Powell This school was designed with outdoor hallways, so here we are in one. Mr. Powell has his hand up in Quiet Coyote and is walking backwards as we approach our building door. He…
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