all the good has been marred by stubborn stagnancy
the cowardice of needing to stay in familiarity
i’m scarred, bruised black and blue
my heart held your hollowness for too long
…
i did not know how to love with you
the sweetness, the bliss, the comfort
i could only grasp hints of it
in the blips of your incompetence
it was the two of us for too long
clearly, there was an imbalance
there’s proof in the constant crying
unsure of what was so wrong
…
i couldn’t rely on you to help define what it was
i did my work and told you what i found
shared it all, i thought complete vulnerability
meant something
i held no reservation; i was completely open
gross, beating heart in my hand
hurting for your reaction
some suspension
…
but you gave me nothing
always
…
empty words and parroting what i’ve said
a lifeless puppet thrust into my hands
the pity i felt kept you moving
Pajolo Cam 
say something!