Yesterday, I spent the whole day in bed with a sense of panic. I rescheduled my therapy appointment to happen two weeks from now, but I’m thinking maybe I should have gone.
Every month, usually around a week and a half before my period, I plummet into a nonsensical depression. Premenstrual dysphoric disorder is what it is. It makes me feel crazy because it usually follows after the high of ovulation phase.
My symptoms include suicidal ideation, giving in to my anxieties and doubts about what I’m meant to be doing, exhaustion/not wanting to do anything, overindulging, and having trouble sleeping.
I started taking low-dose testosterone some weeks ago. I was meant to take my third shot yesterday, but I needed to do nothing! I cancelled all my commitments, and rested instead. I feel blessed to have a comfortable bed. I try to stay optimistic. Try not to beat myself up. Remind myself that it’s okay to have a rest day, especially if I have the means to do so.
One day at a time!
Pajolo Cam 
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